Sucking cock isn’t always a gay thing. Sometimes it’s just a beta thing. Little beta boys suck dick. When you’re the level of beta that you are, you deserve to have a cock in your mouth.
It doesn’t mean you’re gay, it’s just that you’re so beta that hot girls like to emasculate you.
Instead of getting your dick sucked, you do the sucking. I’ll tell you what to imagine as you take that cock deeper and deeper down your throat .You’ll get on your knees to stroke your own cock while listening to what I want you to do.
If you have your own dildo grab it now. If not, I’ll tell you something else you can use.